My day started at 2 a.m. when minions 2 and 3 bounded into
my bed claiming fear of “a crazy tick tick tick”. 10 hours later at 5 a.m. they
both finally fell back to sleep. 10 minutes later at 7:30 a.m. #3 was awake and
ready for Sprout (that is a preschool based t.v. channel for those not in the
know) and milk, and waffles, and whining. I am not in a good mood today. I have
been very honest and direct with my children about that. They know that I am
tired. They know that I am grumpy and they know not to try to pull any shit
with Mommy today. Of course now they also know that I am trying to write a blog
so they keep finding reasons to come into my room or stand just outside of the
door and be annoying in hopes that I will be amused and write about how hilarious
they are. I will not be writing about how hilarious they are.
Later in the morning #3, my nemesis for the day (it’s o.k.
to say that about your 3 year old right?) got his hands on his boom box and the
c.d. that I had “accidentally” put really high and out of sight. He is now
BLARING music from his room upstairs. It seems to be bouncing off of every
surface creating some kind of super echo throughout the entire house. And as I sit here gritting my teeth listening
to V.B.S. Praise music on a loop I can’t help but wonder if this is pay back
for the years of New Kids on the block followed by the years of Guns n Roses
that my mother had to endure. I guess I am supposed to be happy that this Jesus
music is reverberating through my house. I should have some kind of facebook
status with #blessed or some shit like that but, well…..nope, I am not pleased…#jesustakethewheel…
So this is my day, we are all a little whinny and a lot irritable.
I’m pretty sure when husband came home for lunch he wanted to turn around and
walk right back out the door. This is the kind of day when part of me knows I should
stick to my guns and make them do chores and play outside and read before they
can play with their screens but the other part of me knows that if they play
with their screens they will stay safely and quietly in the house and I will be
able to rest. I must admit, there is another, small part of me that gets just
the tiniest amount of joy making them do chores, that’s the part of me that is
pissed at them for keeping me up all night and forcing me off of my own bed.
This is the kind of day when I want to say to them “STOP. Do
not speak, not another word. I do NOT want to know that your brother just filled
the bathroom sink with hotwheels and then water. I do not hear your other
brother screaming at the top of his lungs because he rolled all of his trains
down the stairs and now he’s mad because they are no longer upstairs. I do not
want to have knowledge of any of that because then I will have to do something about
it. Ignorance is bliss baby.” With this as my mind set today I came to an
interesting realization about being a parent and living in a social media world
with other parents.
As I was making lunch for the minions I was wanting someone
to give me some type of kudos or congratulations for accomplishing this task.
This doesn’t happen of course A) because I’m a stay at home parent and by
default I don’t receive a whole lot of praise and B) because all I did was feed
my children and what kind of bitch wants to be congratulated for that? But during this inner dialog I realized
something, THIS is why people post some of the stuff that they post on
facebook. This is why we see checked off to-do lists by stay at home moms of 4.
This is why people who are trying in earnest to get fit want to share their
journey. This is why we see cutesy (I’ll be it sometimes nauseating) pictures
of sandwiches cut into flower and monster truck shapes. Because sometimes, some days, days like today
for example, it is all we can do to live in the day. It takes all a person has
to get the basic everyday life stuff done. So when they accomplish something,
even the smallest little bite of an accomplishment, it feels like something and sometimes, you just gotta
share! Now there are some, and we all know who they are that post every damn
thing that they do on social media and that feels excessive, but if every once
in a while, out of the blue, you have a friend that posts “I fed my kids today!”
you should go ahead and give them a little thumbs up because I’m guessing they
need it.
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| I fed my kids today! |
